I’m writing to you today because I fear that I’ve recently fallen out of love – with running. Yes, we’ve had some good times in the past - a nice race up Pack Monadnock, leisurely runs in the woods, one or two fast 5k’s, and a few good marathons. But, a recent string of physical setbacks has left me feeling defeated and uninspired. What once was great is now painful & joyless. And, I find myself asking the same nagging question: Is this relationship worth saving?
What makes this realization all the more poignant is that it seems as though I’ve found a new love – biking. This new relationship is fresh and exciting. And, we’ve been seeing each other quite a bit recently. Riding my road bike makes me feel fast, wild & free – just like I used to feel while running. To be honest, I’ve had bouts of biking infidelity before (during previous breaks from running) but somehow this time feels different.
Now, I know that we’re still in the early stages of our affair and that biking can be a high maintenance relationship to be sure. What with all the equipment upgrades and new fangled gadgetry that I’ll no doubt be encouraged to purchase. But, it’s certainly a much less abusive relationship than running and it doesn’t beat me up like my old lover used to. Plus, I know that I can last a whole lot longer on the bike than I can on my feet.
Don’t get me wrong, I still care a great deal about running. We’ve had a long and storied history together. It got me into shape and brought me great joy over the years. Many of my best friends run and I still spend a good deal of my free time in and around the running crowd. But, after everything I’ve been through (and the new love I’ve found) the thought of going all the way now makes me feel nauseous.
So the question remains: What should I do? Is there any way I can re-ignite the passion I once had with running? Or, after 14 years, has our relationship just run its course (so to speak) and it’s now time for me to move on? Should I add swimming into the mix (a manage-a-tri?) or will that just lead me to hating all three disciplines? Any advice you could give me in this area would be most appreciated.